My Upside Down Life

My life has been turned upside down. What turned it upside down is not important. What is important is how I react to it. Right now my reaction is not a good one. I'm mad. I have every right to be mad. But I do not want to be consumed with this anger. So I have to turn it around and use this anger for good. Easier said than done. As I write this I am so upset I can barely find the keys. (So forgive any misspellings.) I have always believedI should treat others well even if they don't deserve it. Now, I am fighting to keep this belief. Right now I want some people to hurt the way they have hurt me. That is exactly how I feel on the outside. The inside is a different story. I do not even want my worst enemy to feel the anger and confusion I feel. It makes me sick to think of anyone feeling this way. So what do I do. I have no answer to this question. I do know that I will continue doing the things I know I should. I will probably do a few things I should not do, nothing harmful, things involving chocolate, high heels and earrings. Hopefully tomorrow I will find a way to put something right side up. I truly hope.